We, humans (I think I still am), have a built-in self preservation mode. We want to be safe, secure, comfortable, assured.
We want to be just fine.
We want to be just fine.
And having to know that the only constant thing in life is changes makes me nervous a little bit.
For some people, changes/stepping out of the comfort zone is sort of a driving force to accomplish greater things in life. I agree. And I, to some extent, was also intrigued to experience the unfamiliar and learn/see/embrace new things to fill up bare space in my empty exp jar.
But not anymore.
Now I find my self (I think the right word is) scared. I’m anxious about the unknown problem that may surface when I’m stepping out of the comfort zone. It’s not that I don’t like changes but I prefer to stick with the same things. Things that I already familiar with. So that I have no necessity to be all geared up for bad surprises.
And just now, I was contemplating how the heck I end up with this fear.
As I gave it a thought, I had this suspicion that maybe this fear stems from my own perceived abilities to cope with whatever is coming up. My uptight-nature/ego that everything has to be under control. My lack of confidence. My exposure in failures as I went through all and those failures fueled my self-qualm. And my mind works in such a way that it defines something new as trouble, discomfort.
But not anymore.
Now I find my self (I think the right word is) scared. I’m anxious about the unknown problem that may surface when I’m stepping out of the comfort zone. It’s not that I don’t like changes but I prefer to stick with the same things. Things that I already familiar with. So that I have no necessity to be all geared up for bad surprises.
And just now, I was contemplating how the heck I end up with this fear.
As I gave it a thought, I had this suspicion that maybe this fear stems from my own perceived abilities to cope with whatever is coming up. My uptight-nature/ego that everything has to be under control. My lack of confidence. My exposure in failures as I went through all and those failures fueled my self-qualm. And my mind works in such a way that it defines something new as trouble, discomfort.
I have this belief that fear is not necessarily an intrinsic behavior, I think it's more like something that we can work on by experience, a learned behavior. And so at this point, to break through this fear of mine, I'll just let myself jump in to it, step outside my comfort zone and experiment with the unfamiliar.
To take all in and be all out. To again fill up my exp jar with hope that as I stuff more in to it, my fear would eventually subside.
To take all in and be all out. To again fill up my exp jar with hope that as I stuff more in to it, my fear would eventually subside.
